Die

So when I die  please whatever you do Don't you cry I'm still there in your hearts and in your minds Just remember happier times and smile because I was there.

How is it fair?

As I sit here researching my disease, pondering of this life I see. I wonder how much time I have left and how much of it is meaningful. I'm scared to die, but I'm scared too of living in constant pain and suffering. To gasp for each breath as if...

Death Looms

Shallow breaths Whispered threats Death looms All these regrets Limited life So much to give Life ends As it begins.

Medical Update 1-22-17

Dear thoughtsters,       I have received new information within the last few days. I said I'd update when I had new information. They want to do the plasmapheresis...again. Very dissappointed as it is another 10-11 day stay in the hospital again....

Medical update 1-16-17

Welcome to the new year! 2017! That's amazing we have made it thus far. Well so I never left an update of how the plasmapheresis went. Well that's because I don't know if it worked or not they have not told me. However the treatment process was pretty...

Anymore

All that is around me in my head and outside falls to the ground no sound was made only tear drops  Of years of abuse and hatred I sit here now with my thoughts  of the past and realize what i've done and now I can't live with it anymore

Touch

  A sensual touch How low can you clutch Touch me there I feel it bare.  Oh my God  I'm almost there! Against my skin I feel you within Don't you stop! I need you on top.  Leave me whimpering Crying in tears ...

Mistaken Love

I have made a HUGE mistake Said she on the balcony   Sipping a glass of wine Spinning her finger around the rim   What a beautiful night to end a life   I could jump...

Goodbye

I gave it all to have you here But you gave nothing my dear.   So I leave you now with a whisper A tiny little gift of something that'll wither.   A rose on the floor A note at the...

Sometimes

Sometimes, I don't know what to say In nights of contemplation I see my past self cry Events on the horizon Sometimes I want to die   Parties to go to people to see ...

One Thing I've Learned

One thing I've learned: Family comes first. We may bicker, fight, and get on each others nerves but in the end family is the most important thing because a family sticks together through the good times and bad. Some of us may no longer talk but I...