A 2am Thought of the night

Tonight I sit here thinking about my life and where I've been placed. My circumstances are less than ideal. I've had to move from my home due to a leaky roof in one of the rooms in my house which caused mold to grow. Thus my transplant team telling me I can't be around the mold so I had to move out of my Moms house and Now am staying between my friend Tony's and my grandparents houses. One week when I have my daughter I stay with my Grandparents. Then when I don't have her I'll be with my friend Tony. Since getting out of the hospital I haven't felt well at all. My neck wound is infected where they put the line in for the plasmapheresis. I also can't walk very far without getting out of breath. I can't lift much of anything anymore. I can barely lift my daughter. Her mother wants to take her full time and get her in a daycare; Which I was opposed to because I felt I could still care for my daughter but with how I've been feeling I know that's no longer true. I've taken care of her for over a year but now I've become so ill that even simple tasks take so much out of me. I'm worried the transplant team may be too late and that I am dying. I'm scared because I don't want to die I have so much more to do in this life. . . So now I sit here almost two a.m. in the morning contemplating my life and what to do next and where to go from here. I could lose everything with my medicaid and food stamps and WIC for my daughter if I live with my grandparents for too long due to my cousin having medicaid himself and my grandma having to report me staying with them if I stay too long. SO I have to find a place to live soon before that happens. I can't lost all my benefits or I won't be able to afford my doctors, medicine, or transplant. Everything is going so wrong and I don't know what to do or where to turn to. All I can do is pray now...

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Comments (4)

  1. proudmomma8

    I hope that you find a place to stay, get your transplant, and feel well enough to take care of your daughter.

    March 18, 2017
    1. SkimBradsteen

      Thank you! I’m praying all goes well within the next month. Looking at an apartment the end of the month and I’m hoping I get it.

      March 18, 2017
  2. proudmomma8

    I hope you get it.

    March 19, 2017
  3. liaboarpood67

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    August 10, 2017