What Am I?

I want to dive right in and write about everything and anything that's on my mind. Social media is pissing me off. I get on facebook and all I see everything day is politics, rants, negativity, half naked pictures, and attention whores. What happened to the art, the poetry, and writing people. I miss talking with people who have the same interests as me. People that listen and care about how I feel and know when something is wrong when I write a poem about depression and suicide. If you read it and get it you need to know something is wrong and I need someone to talk to me. I tried over and over for people to get it on Facebook. For my friends to start caring...but no one, Not a single person comments or messages me. What am I? Who am I? Why do I keep these people on my friends list if they never comment nor acknowledge me? I'm just so tired of this. I want to know someone cares enough to ask "Hey what's wrong? Are you okay? Do you need to talk or me to come over or to go out somewhere and talk?" That's what I really want but that's not at all what I get. I get ignored like usual. I get walked on and passed by. Like no one cares unless they need something from me. What the hell am I to people but a person to spy on and never acknowledge. Would they even care if I committed suicide tonight and wouldn't be here tomorrow? Who knows, but I don't want them at my funeral saying they cared when they weren't there for me when I needed them the most...

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Comments (2)

  1. shadow-storm

    Maybe they don’t know what to say… It’s too easy to let the uncomfortable parts of other’s lives slide out of mind bc we’re so consumed by what we want for ourselves from others all too often, when so much pain could be better helped if we just were willing to really be there for someone when they need someone just to show up & spend some time showing we care so it’s not so overwhelmingly alone going through everything.

    I hope you do find/have at least someone who shows up when you need them.

    August 05, 2017
    1. SkimBradsteen

      Yes, You get it. People are so consumed by their own parts of lives to stop and look and see when someone else is hurting. I understand taking care of oneself but when you have a friend who is really struggling they need to stop and really see that they need to help their friend. I have my gf and that’s about it these days.

      August 05, 2017